Red - Self-Discovery Part 1

Hello All,I'm Red. I'd like to share a personal story. Please let me know what you think about it, it's too long so I will slice it into parts. There were parts of course that I modified like characters and some situations to fit leisure reading standards. I entertain friends, FRIENDS ONLY! 

Nag-iinat inat ako habang mataman pa din nakatitig sa monitor ng computer. Naiinis ako sa dami ng paperworks na kailangang i-rush para sa Lunes. Wala tuloy kwenta ang weekend. It's Sunday night yet here I am slaving myself to my professors' requirements! Kung di lang malapit na ang finals pag-aantayin ko ang mga requirements na 'to e. Habang ang kalahati ng mga classmates ko eh masayang nagba-bar hopping somewhere heto ako at nag fo-footnotes sa term paper namin, nag-iisip ng business model at kung ano-ano pa, ang saklap diba?

Ala-una na pala ng madaling araw, di ko namalayan. Ang bilis talaga ng oras kapag gumagana ang brain cells. Naawa ako sa langaw na kanina lang e aali-aligid sa mainit na kape ko, hayun, nag-suicide sa ngayo'y malamig ko nang kape. Nagutom ako bigla. Dala-dala ko yung mug ng kape, nagsindi ako ng ilaw papuntang kusina.

Patay lahat ng ilaw, wala nga pala sila Mama, nakilapaglamay sa isang classmate nila, malamang uumagahin na ang mga yun ng uwi. Dire-diretso ako sa kusina dala ang tasa ng kape. Napasin ko medyo nakaawang ang pinto ng kwarto ng pinsan kong si Renz. Sa amin nakikituloy ang pinsan ko from Cebu. Sa UP kasi sya nag-aaral, pangarap yun ng Tito ko na Tatay nya.

Di ko masyadong ka-close ang pinsan kong ito. Super-achiever kasi sa school kaya medyo may ere, as they say, galit ang mayabang sa kapwa mayabang. Law ang course nito, magaling manimbang at magrason kay palaging nakakalusot sa mga kalokohan nya. If I know, madalas naman 'tong mag-cut ng class eh haha, lagi ko kaya syang nakikita sa dati kong tambayan kaya nga lumipat na ako ng tambayan eh baka maisumbong pa niya ako sa nanay ko lagot na pag nagkataon. Sumilip ako sa nakaawang na pinto. Akala ko walang tao, andnun pala si Renz, nakahiga sa kama kandong ang laptop nya. Uhm, nakakapanibago, kasi di naman home buddy tong pinsan kong ito. Sa ilang buwan niya sa Manila nasuyod na nga 'ata nya lahat ng bars eh, tinalo pa ako. Akala ko kung ano lang ginagawa nito sa laptop, nanunood pala ng porn, walang sounds yung laptop. Sabagay, para saan naman yung sounds sa porno? Maliban na lang kung natuturn-on ka dun. Di ako napansin ni Renz, nasa may pinto kasi ulunan nung kama nya kaya di mo pansin kung dun ka nakasandal.

Na-curious ako, pilit kong sinisilip yung pinapanuod nya, mukhang engrossed na engrossed naman ito kaya di nya ko napansin man lang. Mukhang fore-play pa lang, di pa kasi hubad yung mga characters, at mukhang pinoy ang bida. Wala kasing blonde ang buhok or sobrang puti ng balat. Nakailang minuto na akong nakatayo sa pintuan ng kwarto nya nang makilala ko yung pelikulang pinapanood nya. Di ba't isa yun da mga pelikula ni Coco Martin? Well I should know, may copy ako nun! Discreet bi ako. Walang nakakaalam maski pamilya ko o circle of friends. Oo nga, hayun si Coco Martin at may kasama pang actor nagsimula nang magka bed scene. Natigilan ako. Si Renz nanunood ng pelikula ni Coco Martin? I would understand kung yung mga wholesome films nya pero Masahista?! Dumiretso na ako sa kusina, nagtimpla ulit ng kape, tsaka naghanda ng sandwich. Habang pinapalamanan ko yung sandwich paulit ulit ko pa ding jina-justify yung nakita ko. Baka naman for a project. Lit Crit kaya? Meron ba nun sa Law? Or...Bi ba si Renz?

Medyo asar talaga ako sa pinsan kong to. Bukod kasi sa mayabang e pogi pa. Medyo may pagka-incest pero oo natu-turn on ako sa kanya. Sa aming magpipinsan, sya ang biniyayaan ng artistahing hitsura. Di naman ako pangit, pero angat sya sa akin. Una, mas matangkad sya, 5'8 si Renz samantalang ako e 5'6 lang. Pero mas maputi ako sa kanya, mas matangos nga lang ilong nya. Mas makinis ako sa kanya, pero mas athletic built nya. Laging ganun, may feature sya na angat sa akin. Sa scholastic achievements naman ako lamang. Salutatorian ako nung high-school, debater, math wiz, editor-in-chielf ng school paper, etc. Samantalang si Renz average student lang sa grades pero madaming co-curriculars at higit sa lahat, maangas. Vocalist ng band, artist, skater, sporty. Kaya nga di ko lubos maisip na nanunood sya ng old movie ni Coco Martin!

Bumalik ako ng kwarto, pagdaan ko sa may pinto nya nakasara na ito. Napansin nya sigurong bukas ang ilaw sa hallway.

Kinabukasasn.

Late ako as usual. 8:00 ang first subject ko at 8:05 ako nagising, salamat sa alarm clock kong bulok. Diretso akong banyo. May banyo ako sa kwarto, dati kasi yung master's bedroom. Pagpihit ko ng shower, walang tubig? Imposible. Takbo ako palabas, nasa sala nagva-vacuum si Nanay Pasing, tinanong ko kung walang tubig, meron naman daw. Napalingon ako sa kwarto ni Renz, bukas ang pinto, naalala ko, may banyo din palang sarile tong pinsan kong to, pumasok ako't dumiretso sa banyo tutal wala sya, malamang nauna na sa school. Pinihit ang shower, may tubig, ayos. Naghubad na ako't naligo tutal may toiletries naman sya't tuwalyang nakasabit sa pinto. Pagkatapos maligo inabot ko ang tuwalya, paghablot nun e may nalaglag. Underwear nya. Pinulot ko yun para i-shoot sa laundry basket sa malapit. Nasalat ko, basa. Nakow, basa sa sperm. Natawa ako, nag-morning glory pa ata. Pero napaisip ako, di kaya ginawa nya yun pagkatapos manuod ng video? Pero di pa rin matanggap ng isip ko, lumabas ako ng kwarto nyang nakatapis nung tuwalya nya.

Boring ang Monday. Parang lahat eh zombies sa Walking Dead. Mag-party ba naman ng linggo eh. Ako din walking dead, pero di dahil sa party, dahil sa paper-works  Hanggang 3:00 PM lang pasok ko, pero usually sa mga coffee shops naming magbabarkada inuubos ang oras hanggang takipsilim pero wala ako sa mood. Diretso ako umuwi. Diretso sa kwarto, nagbukas ng sounds at plakda na sa kama. Nakatulog ako.

Nagising na lang ako sa mga kaluskos sa banyo. Pagmulat, nakita ko yung puwit ni Renz, nakatalikod sakin, parang nagpupunas. Moreno sya pero ilang tones fairer ang likod nya, di siguro kasi naaarawan masyado. Tumayo ako, nagpatay ng music saka sya tinanong kung anong kelangan nya. Nakatapis na sya ng tuwalya pagharap sakin.

"Kinuha ko lang yung twalya, sabi kasi ni manang ginamit mo daw." sagot nya haang palapit sa pinto at akma nang lalabas.

Naalala ko yung video kagabi.

"May subject ba kayong literary criticism?" tanong ko.

"Wala, ba't mo natanong?" balik nya ng tanong ko.

"Ahh, nakita kasi kitang nanunuood ng video kagabi, parang classic pinapanuod mo." May pagdidiin ako sa word na classic.

Medyo natigilan sya, namula ang tenga.

"Ah, oo, sa ibang subject yun." Aniyang tila kinukumbinsi din ang sarili.

"Ahh.. okay, may mag libro ako dito about film criticism kung gusto mo." Alam nitong mahilig ako sa pelikula at madalas akong mag-feature ng pelikula sa university school paper namin.

"Okay na kaya ko na yun, salamat!" Mataaas talaga ihi ng mokong naisip ko na lang.

Pagpihit ni Renz sa seradura ng pinto e di sinasadyang sumabit ang laylayan ng tuwalya niya sa side ng bedside table ko. Nahila tuloy ito pababa. Agad syang yumuko para pigilin syang mahubdan ng tuluyan perro huli na. Nakita ko ang kabuuan nya. Napangiti ako sa isip ko. May ipagmamalaki ang loko, bulong ko sa sarili.

Napalingon sya sakin at napangiti.

"Ano ba yan insan, ikaw pa lang nakakakita nito ah haha." Ngingiti ngiti sya habang inaayos ang pagkakatapis sa tuwalya sa beywang.

"Ows, Hahaha, nakita ko na yan nung mukhang sili pa." Ganti kong tumatawa.

Lumapit sya sa kama. Mukhang makikipagkwentuhan ang pinsan ko, wow, first time ata, naisip-isip ko. Umupo sya sa gilid ng kama ko.

"Insan, may girlfriend kaba?"

"Wala na. Nagbreak kami ni Ysha last month, naitanong mo?" Totoong nagbreak kami ng girlfriend ko pero parang wala lang sa akin. Di ko kasi talaga sya gusto. Pang display kumbaga. Pero magkaibigan parin kami.

"Kasi di kita nakikitang may inuuwi dito eh."

"Ikaw ba, wala pa bang natitipuhan ang Cebuano kong pinsan?" Binalik ko ang tanong sa kanya. Sa totoo lang nacu-curious ako. Minsan isang taon lang naman kasi kaming nagkikita ni Renz, tuwing summer lang so di ko masasabing nasubaybayan ko ang pagbibinata nito,

"Haha. Wala pa e, naghahanap pa lang." Napansin ko medyo pinagkikiskis nya ang dalawang paa habang nag-uusap kami. Napalunok ako, ang ganda naman ng paa nito naisip ko.

"Naku madami sa school, ano bang tipo mo?"

Napangiti sya. Nag-isip saglit.

"Gusto ko matangkad, lean and syempre maganda!" Parang naggi-glitter pa mga mata nito, nakatingin sa kawalan na para bang nasa harap nya ang kung sino mang super model na dine-describe.

"Artista ata hanap mo e!" Pambubuska ko. Naisip ko, imposible talagang maging bading to.

Kung saan saan napunta ang usapan namin. Sa mga weird na teachers, mga summer campings namin sa Cebu. Mga kapatid nya. Mga lugar dito sa Manila. Hanggang...

"Insan, virgin ka pa ba?" Mataman syang nakatingin sa kin habang nagtatanong.

"Huh?" Napangiti ako, sabay hampas ng unan sa kanya. Na-corny-han ako sa sarili ko nuon, parang bata lang.

"Ano nga, virgin pa?"

"Ewan ko sayo, bakit ikaw di na ba?" Binalik ko yung tanong, ganito kasi ako kapag nako-corner, sa totoo lang virgin pa ko. Hanggang hipo hipo lang, tsaka di kao masyadong natu-turn on sa babae, not unless siguro e luluhuran ako. Wala pa akong naging girlfriend na willing gawin yun.

"Hindi na." Proud pa rin ang mokong. "18 na tayo no, katorse nga dyan nambubuntis na haha"

Ngumiti lang ako, ayoko kasing balikan nya ako nung tanong pero makulit talaga eh.

"So Virgin nga?"

"Oo." Seryoso akong tinitigan sya.

Na-sense siguro nyang ayokong pag-usapan.

"Okay lang naman e. Haha, masyado kang seryoso." Sabay kabig ng, "Ako Virgin pa ko sa BJ."

"Ha?" Maang maangan naman daw ako.

"BJ. Blowjob! di mo alam dun?, yung luluhod sayo tapos ayun isusubo ka!"

"Ang libog mo din no!" Pero sa totoo lang halos mag pre-cum nako that time.

Nag-iba na ulit topic namin. Nagkwento na sya ng mga fetish nya, mga pantasya at kung ano-ano pa. Listener na lang ako at baka kung ano din masabi ko. Patawa tawa, pahampas hampas sa balikat nya. Ewan pero naaapektuhan ako nung mga kwento nya. Malay ko ba kung gawa gawa nya lang yun diba? Napansin ko ding umuumbok yung harapan nya. Tuwalya pa lang naman nakabalot sa kanya kaya kitang kita ang reaction nung sa kanya. Matagal na kwento, ako naman keen observer lang. Nagulat na lang ako nang...

"Jakol tayo!" sabay hubad nya ng tuwalya.

Tumambad sakin manoy ni insan. Erect na erect na ito dahil siguro sa kwento nya kanina. Di naman niya kailangan ng 'OO' ko. Nagsimula na nyang trabahuin ang sarili. Marahan nung simula hanggang sa pabilis ng pabilis. Nakapikit si insan, damang dama bawat hagod ng palad nya. Napansin siguro nyang di ako tumayo kaya tiningnan nya ko.

"Ano, papanuorin mo lang ako?" Nakangisi nyang sabi.

Pinulot ko yung tuwalya sa lapag tsaka ko nilatag sa kama, pinaharap ko sya duon.

"Dyan na natin iputok." Kako sabay dakma ng akin at sinimulan na ding trabahuin si manoy.

Mabuti na lang nakapikit sya, kundi ay makikita nyang titig na titig ako sa kanya habang pinapaligaya ang sarili. Napakalaki ng ari ni Renz. Halos di mag-meet yung mga daliri nyang nakapulupot dito. Matured na marured para sa edad nya. Ako naman e di pa siguro full-blown. Nalalakihan na ako sa akin pero kapag napapatingin ako sa kanya eh wala talaga akong binatbat. Manipis pa bulbol namin, sabagay kakapal pa to through the years. Ilang minuto pa tumilamsik na ang katas niya sa tuwalyang nakalatag sa harap namin. Nakapikit pa rin syang tila ba nagme-meditate kahit tapos nang labasan, sinasalsal pa din ang unti-unti nang nanlalambot na ari. Pumikit na din ako't nagsimulang mag-concentrate. Medyo matagal akong labasan, napansin nya siguro yun.

"Don't tell me di ka pa din nagjajakol ha, baka dapat sa seminaryo ka nag-aral haha" Pambubuska nito. Di ko man sya tingnan alam kong pinapanuod nya ako ngayon, dun ako naturn-on. Malapit na akong mag-climax pero pinipigil ko kasi gusto kong panuoorin nya pa ako ng matagal.

"Antagal mo insan!" May bahid na ng reklamo ang tinig nito. "Akin na nga!" Sabay saway sa kamay ko't sya na ang nagtuloy ng pag-trabaho sa nuo"y tila nakukuryente ko nang junior.

Di ko maipaliwanag nun kung ano naramdaman ko. Parang kinuryente buo kong katawan. Ang init ng palad nya, sabayan pa ng hingal nya na bumubulong sa kanan kong tenga. Alam ko ding nakapwesto sya ngayon sa likod ko. Sa pagkakadikit namin ay minsan minsang tumatama ang lupaypay nya nang junior sa hubad kong likod.

Dalawang palad na ang gamit nya kaya't lalong naglapit ang mga katawan namin. Damang dama ko na yung pagdunggol ng titi nya sa puwitan ko. Halos mabaliw ako sa sensasyong naramdaman ko that time. Ayokong umungol kayat kinagat ko ang kwelyo ng suot kong t-shirt. Ilang sandali pay tumilamsik na ang katas ko. Tumirik mga mata ko sa sarap. Hingal na hingal ako nun. Nanlalambot ang mga tuhod ko.

Pagmulat ko nagpupunas na sya ng mga palad, nabasa ko ata ang mga yun nung katas na sumabog sakin kanina.

Nakangisi ang gago.

"Matagal ka atang di nagjakol a, pwedeng bumaha sa EDSA sa dami ng tamod mo." Iiling iling itong nagbibiro. Tahimik lang ako pero sa loob loob ko, kakaibang saya ang nandun. Ngayon lang ako nag-hubo sa harap ng lalaking natitipuhan ko. Of all of them, sa pinsan ko pa!

Ginamit ko din yung tuwalya pamunas ng jun-jun ko.

"Insan, pahiram ng shorts, baka makita ko ng katulong nyong nakahubo paglabas ko."

Binato ko sa kanya yung isang short kong nakasabit sa hook sa pader, sinadya kong puntiryahin ang titi nya, nasalo nya naman yun. Nakangisi pa rin at pailing iling na nakatingin sakin. 

(ITUTULOY)

Red - Self-Discovery Part 2

Hapon. Coffee Shop. Netbook. Writer's block.

Tatlumpung minuto na akong nakatanghod sa mga padaan-daang mga estudyante sa harap ko pero ni hindi ko man lang napuno ang word document na kanina pa nakatitig sakin mula sa screen ng netbook kong dala. Nangangalahati na rin ang kanina'y mainit at punong-punong tasa ng kape sa tabi ko. Hay! Nakailang buntunghininga na ko pero wala talagang mailabas ang utak ko ngayon. Kung dati naman eh hindi ko masyadong kailangang pigain ang utak ko kasi tuloy-tuloy at parang gripo sa paglabas ang mga ideas at saka ko naman tinitipa ang keyboard para mailapat sa dokumento yung mga ideas ko para sa article. Pero ngayon, daig ko pa ata ang Sahara desert sa katigangan ng matinong maisusulat.

Halos patapos na ang term at toka ko ngayong magsulat ng artikulo para sa magazine issue ng campus paper namin. Napakasimple kung tutuusin ng gagawin ko, mag-observe ng buhay estudyante sa mga katabing coffee shops ng school namin at bigyan lang ng maganda gandang atake, yung tipong mabibigyan ko ng kabuluhan ang mga simpleng tawanan, buskahan, rushed projects, date at kung anu-ano pang nagaganap sa apat na sulok ng coffee shop kung nasan ako ngayon. Pero wala e, hindi ko kayang paduguin ang utak ko ngayon. Pakiramdam ko tuloy moron ako.
Ilang araw na din ang dumaan mula nung nagkaron kami ng masayang 'bonding' experience ng pinsan kong si Renz pero 'di ko pa rin yun nakakalimutan. Minsan sa gitna ng kahit anong ginagawa ko nasisingit ko yun at pag nangyayari yun napapabilis ang kabog ng dibdib ko at 'di ko mapigilang mapangiti. Lihim ko syang inoobserbahan pagkatapos nun pero parang wala lang naman sa kanya. Normal pa rin syang kumilos sa bahay kahit na kaharap ako. Mayabang pa rin kapag naghahapunan, palaging may bagong kwento. Samantalang ako, parating tulala at nakatingin sa kawalan. Dun ako naiinis, masyado akong affected eh kung tutuusin wala naman talagang significant na nangyari.

Labasan na ng mga estudayante at padami na din ng padami ang tao sa coffee shop. Halos occupied na lahat ng tables. Hindi ko napansin pero may tao na pala sa harap ko na parang nakikisuyo sa upuang bakante sa mesa ko. Tumango na lang ako indikasyong OK lang sa akin na umupo sya don. Nuon ko lang sya napasadahan ng tingin. Nakauniporme sya ng pang College of Med. Bagay na bagay sa kanya yung uniform, napakalinis tingnan. Maputi kasi sya, halos ka-height ko siguro at OK ang fit ng uniform. Di tulad nung ibang nagmimistulang scarecrow sa luwag nung uniform nila. Mestisuhin at may hitsura 'tong estudayante sa harap ko ngayon. May dala syang kape, nilapag nya yun sa mesa sa harap namin, medyo inurong ko yung netbook ko para magka-espasyo sya sa mesa.

"Mukhang busy 'tol ah, anong atin dyan? Frank nga pala." Bati nya sabay alok ng palad.
"Red, ah oo, medyo nga." Nagkamay kami. "School projects." dugtong ko.
"Oo nga eh, stressful days na naman noh? Exams na kasi e." Nagsimula syang uminon ng dala nyang kape.

Wala ako sa mood makipagkwentuhan kaya ngisi na lang sinagot ko sa kanya. Di na rin sya nangulit pagkatapos. Naglabas sya ng libro sa bag at nagsimulang magbasa. Ako naman nakatingin pa rin sa monitor at nagsimulang tumipa tipa kahit wala naman talagang maayos na idea sa utak. Maya maya'y may nahulog na papel sa libro nya, dinampot nya iyon. Sa pag-bend nya'y nalihis pataas yung uniform nyang pantaas at na-expose ng kaunti ang garter ng brief nya pati na ang kaunting balat sa likod. Napakakinis nun. Pasimple ko syang pinasadahan ng tingin. Pinansin ko din mga daliri nyang nakaclamp sa librong binabasa. Ang kinis naman ng lalaking to, bulong ko sa isip. Nuon ako nagkainteres na makipag-usap.

"Wow, highfallutin naman ng libro mo," Kako pertaining sa title ng book na hawak nya, ni hindi ko kasi yun ma-pronounce.
"Ah oo, kunyari lang." Sabi nyang nakangiti, nilapag nya yung libro at parang game makipag-usap.
Ang ganda ng ngiti nito, pantay ang mga ngipin at dahil na rin siguro sa kaputian, mamula-mula ang labi. Parang natutuwa ako sa mga nakikita ko sa kanya.
"Mahirap ba ang med 'tol?" Alam ko namang walang kwenta yung tanong ko pero wala na akong ibang maisip e.
"Hindi naman, gusto ko naman to e so Ok lang sakin."
"Wow, let me guess, family of doctors kayo no?" Haha, natawa na lang ako sa hirit ko.
"Ang galing mo ah." Sumakay naman sya at nakipag-high five pa sakin na parang amazed na amazed talaga.
Yun nagsimula kaming magkwentuhan sa buhay buhay. Taga-Pampanga pala sila pero may bahay sila sa Muntinlupa at dun siya ngayon umuuwi. Doctor ang daddy nya, nurse ang nanay nya. Tatlo silang magkakapatid, professor sa kabilang university ang Kuya nya, naglo-law naman yung ate nya.

Andami kong nalaman sa buhay nya. Game naman kasing magkwento, ako naman paisa-isang detail lang. Mas gusto ko kasing nakikinig lang kapag kwentuhan, mas interesting kasi buhay ng iba kaysa sa routine ng buhay ko. May girlfriend daw sya sa Pampanga, nag-aaral duon.

"Wow so pano yung contact nyo?" May iba akon ibig sabihin sa contact pero syenpre 'di niya yun nakuha.
"Weekly naman akong umuuwi, minsan sya din bumibisita dito." Matipid nyang sagot.
"Ikaw tol, kwento ka naman sa buhay mo." Habang sinasabi nya iyo'y mataman syang nakatingin sa kin na parang interesadong interesado sya. Naiilang ako sa atensyong binibigay nya ngayon.
"Well, eto, Business Ad course ko, may kaunting business si Papa kaya malamang sakin din naman yun mapupunta so as preparation ito ang inenroll kong course." Observant ang loko, medyo hindi kasi maganda ang tono ko nung sinasabi ko iyon.
"Mukhang ayaw mo nang course mo ah!" At hayun na naman yung ismid nyang kalahating ngiti. Wow, nakaka-hypnotize!
"Uhm... medyo, gusto ko kasi Creative writing eh."
"Wow, writer ka pala?"
"Medyo, or tingin ko?" Nagkatawanan kami dahil sa sinabi ko.
Ang gaan nyang kausap, ewan ko ba pero parang matagal ko na syang kakilala, ang kampante ako sa kanya. Di ko namalayan na madilim na pala sa labas ng coffee shop at nagsimula nang umulan. Maya maya pa kumulog na rin. Dun ko na naisipang magpaalam sa bago kong kaibigan.
"May auto ka ba?" tanong nya sakin, naglalabas na sya ng susi ng auto that time.
"Wala e, malapit lang kami dito kaya nagco-commute lang ako." Nagsimula ko na ring ayusin mga gamit ko.
"Sabay kana sakin, naka-park ako sa malapit lang."
"Sigurado ka? Kung sa Munti ka uuwi, hindi along your way yung sa amin."
"Okay lang, maaga pa naman."
"Sige ikaw bahala."

Lumabas na kami ng coffee shop. Medyo malakas na ang ulan at kelangan naming puntahan yung kotse nyang naka-park malapit sa isang fast-food chain. Nagtanggal sya ng pantaas na uniform, wala ata kasi syang payong tulad ko. Naiwan ang puting t-shirt nyang panloob. Napaka-sexy talaga nyang tingnan sa puti bulong ko sa sarili.
Patakbo naming tinungo ang kotse nya, ginawa nyang pananggalang sa ulan yun uniform nya, ako nama'y di na rin inalintana ang ulan, mas kinover ko pa yung dala kong bag, andun kasi yung netbook ko.
Pagdating namin sa sasakyan medyo nabasa kami, ako sa bandang likod samatalang sya humapit sa dibdib ang suot nyang manipis na undershirt.  Nabakat tuloy ang matitipuno nyang dibdib. Perpektong hugis iyon, halatang alaga sa diet at exercise. Umupo ako sa passenger's seat at nagpagpag ng basang polo. Hihubad ko na rin ang pantaas ko, may sando naman ako sa loob.
"Dito muna tayo, mukhang lalakas pa ang ulan e." sabi nya habang tinutuyo ang sarili. Maya-maya'y hinubad na nya ng tuluyan ang suot na t-shirt. Nagulat ako sa ginawa nya. Napalunok. Ang ganda kasi ng hubog ng katawan nito, di malayo sa naisip kong korte kani-kanina pa. At ang mas nakapagpahindig sa mga balahibo ko ay ang maninipis niyang buhok sa kili-kili. Parang ang bango at ang sarap amuyin nito.
"Tol kita ko na boobs mo." pabiro kong turan para itago ang tensyon na nararamdaman ko.
"OO nga tol, sorry ah wala akong bra." Parang bading naman nyang sapo-sapo ang dibdib. May hinugot syang itim na t-shirt sa bag at isinuot iyon.

Mas tumingkad ang kaputian nya sa kulay ng t-shirt. Di ko na naman napigilang purihin ang kagandahang lalaki nito sa isip ko. Maski ata anong kulay isuot nito e papasa sa rampa.

Nagkakwentuhan ulit kami sa loob ng sasakyan kahit habang may mahina syang acoustic music na pinapatugtog. Crush ko na talaga ang lalaking ito! Di lang maporma, may taste pa sa music at may sense kausap. Naiinis ako ng palihim sa sarili ko kasi may mga di magagandang eksena akong naiisip kasama sya. Buti na lang nakapatong sa lap ko kung bag ko, kundi eh baka nahalata nyang kanina pa nya apektado ang buong mundo ko sa nakakadarang na presensya nya.

"Tol, ilagay mo muna sa likod yung bag mo." Sabi nyang nakatingin sa bag na kandong ko.
"OK lang tol." Sabi ko namang walang balak tanggalin ang bag sa kung nasaan ito ngayon. Mahirap na! sabi ko sa sarili.
Maya-maya pa'y pinaandar nya na ang sasakyan. Ginuide ko sya sa ruta papunta sa amin. Tuloy pa din kwento kwento namin sa sasakyan, parang di kami mauubusan ng pagkukwentuhan. Mahilig syang magbasa at manuood ng classic films na syang nakadagdag sa libog points ko sa kanya. Parang gusto kong itulak palayo ang palapit na palapit naming subdivision para tumagal pa ang kwentuhan namin pero wala na din akong nagawa dahil maya-maya pa e nasa harap na kami ng bahay namin.
"Salamat 'tol ha." Naghanda na akong bumaba ng sasakyan.

"Ay tol, number mo nga pala para may contact naman tayo, kaunti lang nakaksundo ko sa Manila e." Yes! para akong nanalo sa lotto sa isip isip ko, nagpalitan kami ng numero at tuluyan nang nagpaalaman.

Naligo ako pagka-akyat ng kwarto, habang nagsasabon ako ng katawan e hindi ko mapigilang maisip sya at ma-arouse. Hindi ko na pinahirapan ang sarili ko at mag-isa ko na lamang pinagpasasahan ang ala-ala ng maumbok nyang dibdib habang abala ang kanang kamay ko sa alam nyo na kung ano. Habang nagtutuyo ako ng buhok, narinig kong may tumitipa-tipa  ng gitara sa kabilang kwarto. Alam kong si Renz yun. Sya lang naman mahilig sa music sa bahay namin.

Na-miss ko ang pinsan ko kaya kinatok ko sya sa kwarto niya. Maya-maya'y binuksan nya yun. Ewan ko kung bakit pero nakasimangot sya nung nakita ako. Bipolar naman nito sabi ko sa isip ko. Pero ganun pa man tumuloy ako sa kwarto nya.
Nakasando lang sya at boxer shorts. Hindi ko mapigilang pansinin ang maganda nyang legs at pares ng paa. Umupo siya sa sofa sa tabi ng kama nya, nagcross legs at itinuloy ang pagtipa-tipa sa gitara.

"Kamusta sa school?" wala na akong maisip itanong eh, umupo ako sa kama nya, nakasampay pa rin sa balikat ko yung twalyang ginamit ko kanina.
Abala pa rin sya sa pagtapik tapik sa gitara, ni hindi man lang ako nilingon.
"Ganun pa din." Mahina nyang sagot. Wala man lang kalatoy-latoy.
Pakiramdam ko ayaw nya akong kausapin that time. Medyo nainis din ako kaya tumayo na lang ako para lumabas na.
"Red, sino yung naghatid sa'yo?" Di ko inaasahang itatanong nya yun. Napalingon ako sa bintana sa kwarto nya. Tanaw nga pala duon yung gate namin.
"Barkada ko." Blangko kong tugon.
"Ows, babae ata yun eh." Di pa rin sya nakatingin sakin.
"Hindi a, si Franz yun."
"Ah, classmate mo?"
"Hindi, nakilala ko lang sa coffee shop."

Dun na sya nagtaas ng ulo.

"Nakilala mo lang sa coffee shop tapos hinatid kana?" Medyo tumaas ang boses nya sa tanong nya. Nainis ako sa tono nya.
"Oo, school mates naman kami ah." Padepensa kong balik sa kanya.

Nagbaba ulit sya ng ulo sa gitara nya.

"Baka naman ka-date mo?" Nang-aakusa na ang tono nya, pero mas mahina na ngayon.
"Ano?!" Ako naman ang medyo napataas ng boses. Di ko alam kung anong inaasal nito ngayon. Gusto kong isipin na nagseselos sya pero bakit?
"Wala." Nagtuloy sya sa pagtipa-tipa ng gitara. May hina-hmmm din syang tono.
Naguguluhan ako sa mga inaasal nya kaya lalabas na sana ako ng kuwarto. Bigla syang nagsalita.
"Gusto mo turuan kitang mag-gitara?" Nakatingin na sya sakin. Maaliwalas na ang mukha nya.
Matagal ko na ring gustong matuto nun pero dahil walang musically inclined sa bahay namin dati di ko na din in-attempt kaya natuwa ako sa sinabi nya.
"Sige!" kako at naupo na ako sa tabi nya.

Mga isang oras din nya akong matiyagang tinuruan ng mga basic chords at strumming. Madali naman akong natuto, gusto ko naman kasi talagang matuto. Madalas nyang sawayin ang kamay ko, mga mahihinang tapik na ewan pero nagugustuhan ko. Tapos hinahawakan nya mga daliri ko para itama sa mga kwerdas ng gitara.

Halos mabuo ko na ang isang kanta kaya pinaupo nya ko sa stool para at pinaharap sa kanya. Imaginin ko daw na nagpeperform na ako sa harap ng mga tao. Na isa na daw akong pro. Medyo na-OAhan ako sa scenario nya pero OK sabi ko naman. Ok naman boses ko, hindi pang singing contest pero di naman sablay sa tono. Nagsimula akong mag-strumm ng ilang chords. Natutuwa ako sa sarili ko kasi may bago akong nalaman in a span of how many hours. Sige sa tipa may kasama pang kanta, may papikit pikit pa.

May namali ata akong chord kaya pumuwesto sya sa likod ko at iniaayos ang mga daliri ko sa gitara. Naka-boxers lang sya, napakanipis na tela kaya't pag nilalapit nya yung lower body nya sa likod ko salat na salat ang lahat ng pwedeng masalat. Parang tama naman yung mga chords ko pero di pa rin sya umaalis sa likod ko. Patay malisya naman ako. Pero sa ilang minuto nyang pagkakatayo sa likod ko e nararamdaman kong unti unting nabubuhayan si junior niya. Sige lang naman ako sa pag-strumm hanggang naramdaman kong matigas na matigas na talaga ito. Nilayo nya ng maramdaman nyang napapansin ko na nga iyon.

"OK, marunong ka na, bukas na ulit!" Pinutol nya ako sa kalagitnaan ng kanta, parang pataboy pa nga tono nya. Kinuha nya sakin yung gitara at saka sya naupong muli sa sofa sa harap ko. Pasimple kong pinansin ang harap ng shorts nya at nakumpirma kong bukol nga nya yung kaninang dumudunggol sa tagiliran at likod ko.
"Bitin naman!" Reklamo ko, medyo nag-aanticipate pa naman ako ng aksyon from him.
"Ok lang yan, one step at a time, ikaw talaga pabigla-bigla." Na-sense ko na naman yung indifference sa voice nya, parang may ipinapahiwatig talaga tong mokong na to kako sa isip ko.
"Ok fine!" Nakaismid kong tugon at saka na ako tumayo papunta sa pinto.

Bago ako lumabas...

"Red! Wag kang pabigla-bigla, sa susunod, wag kang sasama sa kung sino-sino." Blangko nyang turan na hindi man lang tumitingin sakin pero madiin ang pagkakasabi nya.

Nakataas na kilay kong hinarap sya.

"Ano bang sinasa-----." Narinig ko ang pagtawag ni Mama mula sa kabilang panig ng pinto.

"Red, Renz  dinner time!" Katok ni Mama sa pinto ni Renz.

Bago ako tuluyang lumabas ng kwarto tinapunan ko sya ng mapanuring tingin.

(ITUTULOY)

Ram - Cebu Coffee Shops Part 1

“I wish to marry the most beautiful girl in the world.” I remembered saying this, twelve or so years ago.
Oh how things have changed…

First of all, this is my story; it happened to me and it’s up to you if you believe me or not (though the names are changed and the conversations aren’t really a word for word recollection, the thought still remains the same and so does the story). I’m new here, probably only a month has passed since I stumbled upon this site. As to how I found it, well, it was one horny night for me and a couple of keywords in google and then bam, here I was. Anyway, based on the stories I’ve read here, I’m supposed to introduce myself so; I’m Ram, a nineteen year old Cebuano, tall, tan and I’m not well built, just average I guess (I enrolled myself in a gym but sometimes my laziness gets the best of me). I won’t lie, there are muscles here and there but that’s as good as it gets hahahaha am I gwapo? I don’t know, I’ll leave it to your imagination (and I won’t even try to say “people say I am handsome/attractive” or “people say I look like *insert handsome actor here*”). As I’ve said, I’m not phony. I don’t know if I’m gay or bi, I like who I like and I love who I love so let’s leave it to that. One thing is clear though, I am not effeminate or flamboyant. I’m comfortable in English so I’ll write my story in English. Here it goes.

Two years ago, I was a freshman in a medical school with a good reputation here in Cebu. On the first day of my college life, I was pretty much a loner since most of my barkada took up another course in another prestigious school (this school has a lot of campuses hahaha) and some went to Manila. I knew some people but they were mostly batchmates and some classmates that I wasn’t really close with but I decided to go with them rather than to spend most of my time alone. Since it was the first week and we were still freshmen, our teachers would only come inside the room and collect our study loads then leave (but on wed-fri on the same week, they started to give short lectures) so we kept on going to the coffee shops surrounding the school and frequented Bo’s coffee most especially.
One day while we were in Bo’s (I think there were around 5 of us) a group of second year students, in the same department as us, came in and sat a couple of tables away from us. They were loud, and we were loud so basically, the peaceful coffee shop turned into a den of noisy teenagers. One of the barista began to make shushing sounds but both of our groups ignored him so he raised his voice and told us to keep quiet. My friends and I looked at the table with the second years and they too looked at us, we exchanged looks and we all burst out into fits of laughter. We continued to chat but in low voices until we had to leave for our next class. Just as we left, I felt a tap on my shoulder.

“Bai excuse me.” I turned around and saw a guy, one of the second years, grinning behind me.
“Yes bai?” I raised my eyebrow in question.
“You see that girl?” he pointed inside and I saw a girl try to hide her face, “she thinks your cute man gud. That’s all bai hahahaha” and then he went back inside. My friends began to mock me on the way to our class.

That was the first time I saw him and our first interaction. In between classes, we’d bump into their group and there would be teasing and the girl would try to slap them and I would try to stop my friends but he’s the worst, because he would try to push the girl to me or me to the girl. But it was all playful.

Friday one week before the week for the finals of the first term, I went to Bo’s alone after my 3pm class. My friends and I were supposed to go to Plantation Bay to spend the weekend there but I told them that I had an important dinner that Friday and that I was being picked up. I promised them that I will go first thing on Saturday. While waiting for my driver, I decided to do a little reading for the exam. After a while, the second year guy came in and took the table beside mine. He was a bit preoccupied so he didn’t notice me until he came back from ordering.

“Oy bai!” he said. I looked up and he was smiling at me.
“Bai!” I smiled back.
“Sorry bitaw if you’re annoyed na by our teasing. Especially by my teasing.”
“It’s ok ra oy, it’s just teasing anyway.” We laughed.
“Yeah but Rhea thinks you really are cute though.”
“Ayaw na bi, gara na hahahaha (stop it, that’s already too much)”
“I’m not kidding! In fact I think she’d be really happy if I got your number for her!” he opened his notebook and made me write my number. I rolled my eyes and wrote it down, both of us laughing.
“I’m Jon by the way.”
“Ram.”
“Nice to meet you Ram.”
“Nice to meet you too.” We shook hands.
“Basin (maybe) it’s you who wants my number bai ha!” I joked.
“Naboang na! hahaha” (That’s crazy) he said. “Sige bai, I’ll leave you to your reading, sorry for disturbing.” And so for the next hour, we got submerged in our books. I kept on glancing at my watch, 4:30 and still my driver hasn’t picked me up yet, won’t reply to my texts or even answer my calls and it started to rain. Around 5 o’clock, Jon tapped me and said that he’ll be going to his last class. By this time, I got super pissed at my driver so I decided to get a taxi.

Obviously it was so hard to get a cab and I was already drenched to the bones by the rain. What a bad day I’m having. As I was still desperately trying to get a cab under the rain (by this time, I gave up trying to stay dry since it’s pointless), a black BMW stopped in front of me and the window rolled down. Jon was sitting on the driver’s seat.

“Ram! Ngano nagpa uwan man ka bai?” (Ram, why are you staying under the rain?)
“I’m trying to hail a cab bai, my driver hasn’t picked me up yet and I’m going to be late for something.”
“Sulod sa car bai, masakit gyud ka. Ihatod na tika sa inyo.” (Get inside the car or else you’ll get sick. I’ll drop you off.)
“No thanks bai, mabasa ra imo’ng car. I’ll keep waiting for a taxi.” (Your car will only get wet.) but he went out of the driver’s seat and opened the door for me.
“Sulod lagi ba! Nagpabasa na sad bya ko’s uwan ha, kung masakit ko sala gyud ni nimo.” (Get inside! I’m also under the rain and if I get sick it’s all your fault.) So I had no other choice but to get inside. He parked the car near the gas station and turned the AC down.
“I think I have some dry clothes that we can change into. It’s bad if we dry up in our wet clothes.” He reached for his bag at the back and pulled out two white shirts. We changed into them and tried to dry up.
“I thought you had a class?” I asked.
“I did but it was cancelled, naay lakaw amo’ng maestra gud.” (Our teacher had an errand to do.) “So, where do you want me to drop you off?”
“Sa Banilad ra dapit bai.” (Somewhere in Banilad will do.)
“Taga Banilad sad bya ko.” (I’m also from Banilad.)
“Really?!” he nodded and started the car. The village he lives in turned out to be near the village where I live so it was pretty convenient for both of us. He dropped me off at around 7 in the evening. Turns out, our driver got stuck in traffic and the car broke down.

After that, we’d frequently bump into each other in Bo’s (turns out he’s a coffee lover too!) and in between classes we’d say hi but his teasing still didn’t stop and it was ok. I think you could say that we became friends, in a way a freshman and a sophomore are friends. But that was it; we were friends and nothing more. Yeah I know I have urges to like guys and yeah he was handsome but I didn’t like him in a romantic kind of way. He was just Jon and I was just Ram.

Sembreak in college, I found out, was a total pain in the ass and in the wallet. Three weeks without school means three weeks without allowance and three weeks of looking for things to do. Luckily I got my driver’s license earlier (thank God for connections hehehehe) and well, I spent a lot of time road tripping and late night drives with my friends. But my favourite part was when I get to spend some alone time in random coffee shops. A good book plus a good coffee makes my day better. One day, I went to UCC Café Terrace in Ayala (I’m not a fan of coffee shops in malls because they can get pretty crowded but UCC Café has one of the best coffees and French toast). There were a handful of people but luckily there was a table vacant, near the window and I took it. Hours passed and the shop was filled with people and as I glanced towards the entrance, lo and behold who had just entered! It was Jon and his face was scanning for a free table and then he got sad because he didn’t see any. He probably didn’t see me and as he was about to leave, I called out to him and he smiled the biggest smile I had ever seen on his face.

“Ikaw ra usa?” (Are you alone?) he asked as he sat across from me.
“Yeah, I do that sometimes.”
“Ka-loner sad nimo uy!” (You are such a loner!)
“Hilom uy (shut up)! Hahahaha how about you?”
“I’m waiting for someone but I guess I’ll go to Starbucks nalang since there’s no table here.”
“Your girlfriend? Yeeee hahahaha You guys can stay here, I was about to leave anyway” (even though I wasn’t but hey, I was being a good guy)
“Joke ra bitaw, I’m not meeting anyone. It’s just me. And I don’t have a girlfriend.”
“Loner sad diay ni siya hahahaha” (Turns out you’re a loner too!) “and it’s hard to believe that a good looking guy like you doesn’t have a girlfriend!” I taunted.
“So you think I’m good looking?” he asked and smiled at me, raising his eyebrow playfully.
“Kaluod nimo oy.” (You’re disgusting) I snapped. He just laughed and went to order coffee.
He came back a couple of minutes after. “I thought you were leaving?” he asked.
“Oh so you want me to leave?”
“Joke ra gani.” He smiled again. Gad his smile.
We spent the whole afternoon getting to know each other and we didn’t notice the time until both of us began to feel hungry.
“WTF look at the time! It’s already 8 in the evening!” I said.
“Hahahahahahaha! Wow time sure does fly when you’re having fun.”
“I better go now.” I stood up to go but he stopped me.
“Let’s have dinner first.” He offered but I wasn’t quite sure I wanted to. I mean I did want to but I didn’t trust myself enough to actually say yes. Here’s the thing, I didn’t like him up to that point but after our conversation well, something inside me changed. And I swear I was afraid. I didn’t want to fall for this guy because he’ll never like me back and it only means that I’ll be spending more nights crying and hurting about him. And I’m tired of doing that to myself. And I knew that I was on my way to falling head over heels for this guy. I mean c’mon, who could resist his smile and the dimple on his left cheek? Who could say no to the eyes that disappear when he smiles and to his brown eyes? Yes, he’s gwapo. More than gwapo actually since I found out he tried participating in the school pageants.
“Ok fine but your treat.” I gave in to him.
“Ka cute nimo oy!” (You’re so cute!) He said while smiling and pushing me out the door. We ate in Café Laguna.

After our plates have been cleaned, he called for the bill and I offered to pay my share.
“No, I said I’m paying.” He insisted.
“Let’s split the bill at least.” But he shook his head.
“I would feel bad if I didn’t pay for the first date.”
“So this is a date?” I teased.
“You wish.” He said, grinning.
“Hahahaha! So let me pay then!” I pushed. He rolled his eyes and stuck his tongue out at me, “If I said that this was a date, then would you stop offering to pay?” he said.
“Maybe. But it’s impossible, two guys don’t go on dates.” I stuck my tongue at him.
“It is possible! We’re having one right now!” he laughed.
“Gaaad. Fine. But I’ll make it up to you whether you like it or not.”
“Ok then. It’s settled. This is a date-” I was about to object but he held his hand at me, “and there’s nothing you can do about it.” He laughed at me once again. I sat awkwardly, staring at him. Holy shit I was beginning to like him and I don’t know what I felt that moment but my heart fluttered and my stomach stated churning. The waiter arrived and I was still silent. He smiled and took the bill. I playfully rolled my eyes at him.

“How are you going home?” He asked as we got out of the restaurant.
“I brought my car.”
“Ay bati, ihatod unta tika.” (That sucks, I was going to drop you off.)
“Hahahaha luora na nimo oy.” (You’re getting gross.) But really, I started to blush and I was jumping up and down inside. We walked to the basement parking.
“Sige bai, this was a fun day. Thanks again!” I told him.
“Sure! I hope we can do this again some other time.” He replied.
“Let’s! And next time, it’s my treat.” He smiled and I smiled back.

That night, I wasn’t able to sleep properly. I kept on tossing and turning on my bed and his face kept on appearing in my mind. At around 2am, I received a message in my phone. It was from an unregistered number.
“Hi gwapo.” It said.
“Who’s this?” I replied.
“Imo’ng future ;)” (Your future)
“If you’re trying to be cute, don’t because it’s creepy. I think you got the wrong number.”
“Sure ko this is the right number.” At this point, I stopped replying and continued thinking about Jon and weighing my feelings for him and cursing myself for starting to like him (and cursing him too). My phone vibrated again.
“Hoy Ram it’s me bitaw. It’s Jon hahahahaha!” And when I read this, my heart did a somersault, double flip and some more somersault.
“At ma’y pa ‘your future, your future’ ka pa ha!”
“Hahahaha, I WAS trying to be cute but you are such a cock blocker!”
“Di na kailangan, cute naman ka!” At this point, I couldn’t stop smiling. We continued to text and I was going crazy. I wish you liked me too. I kept on repeating this again and again.
“Bai, can I call you? I want to let you hear something.” He said and I couldn’t contain my feelings.
“Sure.” I replied, trying to act cool even though I was about to burst. My phone rang and I answered it.
“Hello?” I said trying to hide my excitement.
“Bai.” He said on the other line. His voice is even sexier and manlier over the phone.
“Bai.” I said and there was silence for a couple of seconds, only our breathing could be heard and it was still hot.
“Hahahaha bitaw, I want you to listen to something and tell me what you think ha?” There was shuffling and movement on the other end. Then I heard him clearing his throat and a strumming of a guitar.
Shit he’s going to sing. He can sing?! Shit shit shit shit. I thought to myself. He began to sing and he sounded really good. The guitar matched his voice, he sounded like Bamboo and it was just perfect. The song sounded original, it was about falling in love and I thought to myself, Hey, maybe there is a chance for us.

The song ended and he cleared his throat.
“Hello? Ram you still there?” I was dumbfounded. I was lost for words. His voice was just perfect. Can he get even more perfect?
“Yeah, I’m still here. Kuyawa nimo bai oy!”
“Hahahaha thanks. So, how was it?”
“The song? I guess that was original, am I right?”
“Yeah it is.”
“It was great! Jon you are so good! Your voice even sounds great like I swear bai.”
“So you liked it?”
“Liked it? I loved it.” My emotions got the best of me.
“Great, then I guess she’ll like it too.” BAM, the bomb was dropped.
“Yeeeee! So you wrote that for a girl? Kinsa man bai(Who is she)?” I had to act like I was actually happy and not hurting at all. This was what I hated. This was what I told myself. And now it happened again, my heart got ripped out of my chest again. I died at that moment. I literally felt my body drop. But it was my fault but still I hated him. Tears started to fall from my eyes and I had to force myself to sound happy still, suppressing the pain.
“Classmate nako bai. Do you think she’ll like it?”
“Of course bai! She’ll love it, I loved it man gani.”
“Thanks bai! Anyway-”
“Bai I have to sleep na. I’m really sleepy already.” I said before he could say anything else. I immediately disconnected the call without waiting for his reply and after that, the tears fell even harder. My chest was heaving, it literally ached, and I was gasping for air. I slept on a tear drenched pillow that night.

To be continued. Our story is kinda long hahahahaha

Ram - Cebu Coffee Shops Part 2

Avoiding him in school was so hard; our classes were practically right next to each other. Once or twice he tried to talk to me but I always had an excuse; “I’m late for my next class bai,”, “I’m being fetched na,”, or sometimes I just completely ignore him. It’s shallow of me, I know but I was trying to get as far away as possible from him because I didn’t trust myself enough and I didn’t want to fall harder and harder for a straight guy who can never give me what I wanted, what I needed.
But the teasing between my barkada and his didn’t stop and it was an avenue for the two of us to interact again. I decided that there was no point in trying to get away from him, so as hard as it was for me, I endured the pain of having him within arm’s reach but never really getting the chance to touch him.
One Saturday morning, I decided to ditch the community service class and went to Bo’s to wait for my 1pm class. It was there that I saw him again; he was alone. Don’t get me wrong; we were friends but having him alone, without the distraction of our barkadas, it was something else. I was about to turn and make a run for it but he looked up from his books and smiled at me; that gorgeous, perfect smile of his. It would be rude to walk away now would it? I had no choice but to return his smile and sit down a few tables away from him. I thought he was going out but the annoying but quirky bastard that he is, he was getting his things to transfer to my table. What a douche. I thought but really, I was smiling inside.
“What’s up bai?” he asked.
“Busy as usual. I didn’t even attend my morning class.” I replied.
“Bad-ass kid o!” he teased and I just rolled my eyes.
“Pagtuon na dinha.” (Continue studying), I told him and he just smiled and went back to his books.
Time stretched on and I caught myself staring at him. But I wasn’t the only one who caught staring.
“Unsa’y gitanaw nimo bai?” (What are you looking at?) he asked with a sly smile on his face.
Shit. “Huh? Ay, it’s nothing. Just zoned out for a while.” I looked away and quickly sipped on my coffee. I stung myself.
“Shit shit shit! It fucking burns. Ouch my tongue!” I began to curse. He was surprised and laughed at me.
“Di man gud maghinay gud!” (You’re not careful, that’s why) and tried to help me wipe off the coffee but I dismissed him.
“Yeah, that’s my problem. I’m never careful, that’s why I get hurt easily.” I said out of the blue.
“Ka drama!” (So dramatic!) we both laughed and I realized just how stupid I sounded.
“Anyway, I have to get going. Don’t want to miss my class.”
My class was PE and it ended at 4. When I checked my phone, there was a text from him, two hours ago.
“Ram, remember that you owe me dinner? I’d like to claim that now hahaha!” he said in the text.
I replied, “Douche! Ok fine. I just had PE, where are we meeting?” and changed into my casual clothes. After I changed, I saw him sitting at the bleachers smiling widely like he just won first prize in something. We had dinner at Casa Verde.
“Have you been avoiding me bai?” he asked, over dinner.
I almost choked, “What? Of course not, busy lang gyud ko bai.” (I just got really busy.)
“Oh ok, I thought you were avoiding me. I got kinda lonely bya.” He pouted his lips and I just rolled my eyes. But god he looked so cute.
“So anyway, it’s my birthday next Saturday. I’m having a simple dinner and I expect to see your face.” He said.
“I wouldn’t be absent if it comes to food.” I jokingly told him.
“Great, adto sa Chateau de Busay ha. You can bring a friend.” (It’s in Chateau de Busay)
“Ok, is it too formal?” I asked.
“Yeah kinda, we’re also celebrating my grandparents’ anniversary. And I have a surprise announcement so I want you to be there. Ok?” I nodded at him.
“Promise me you’ll be there ok?” he urged.
“Ok geez I promise.” The night dragged on and we were enjoying each other’s company, as friends. Or at least only one of us feels that way.

Saturday came and I decided to drag Jason along with me and I drove both of us all the way to chateau in our tuxedos. It was a grand party; Jon totally lied about the simple dinner thing. We saw familiar faces from school and his barkada were there and we decided to sit along with them. The night was beautiful and the place was perfect. There was a short program before the dinner and there was a part where Jon sang to everyone the song he sang to me over the phone. I felt chills everywhere.

“I’d like to make an announcement to everyone.” He said after the song, “Everyone important to me and those that I hold dear are here with me tonight. So I’d like to take this chance to say that…” I didn’t know what he was about to say but my heart was beating so fast.

“Ma, Pa, Lolo, Lola and everyone else; I’d like you to meet my girlfriend, Sarah.” A girl from our table shyly stood up and went to hug him. Everyone cheered and applauded and I joined in the celebration too, even though my heart was practically torn away from my chest that time. In front, his parents were hugging Sarah and all his family was welcoming her. His father took the mic, “For everyone’s information, this is the first time our boy has introduced a girl to us. We were worried that he was gay!” Everyone laughed and the merrymaking continued.

I was feeling sick so I decided to go to the bathroom. I had to lock the doors because the tears started to come when I entered. What the fuck is wrong with you? Why are you crying over a guy? He’s just your friend. I told myself.
You are not gay. I rolled my eyes. My heart was stubborn and I knew better.

Someone knocked on the door and I went out. Slow music was playing and the scene that greeted me was too heartbreaking; everyone was slow dancing and Sarah was wrapped in Jon’s arms.
“Jason, I’m going now.” I told my friend but he wanted to stay a bit longer so I left him. I drove to Vudu and I felt like a sore loser. I drank the night away.

At around 1am, I received a text from Jason asking me if I have arrived home but I didn’t reply to him. He got worried because he kept on sending me texts and tried to call me but I ignored him still. A couple of minutes later, it was Jon who texted me and it was a mistake to reply to him because I think he knew that I was drunk but I wasn’t drunk yet, just a bit tipsy. Ok maybe I was a bit drunk but not too drunk to completely forget everything that happened. So he called me.

“Ram, asa man ka bai?” (Ram, where are you?) he said
“Hi Jooooooooon! Naa ko sa balay bai.” (I’m at home)
“Ram don’t shit with me. Where are you?”
“I’m at home lagi! Musta si Sarah? Lami siya bai?” (How’s Sarah? Does she taste good?) I laughed.
“Dude what the fuck? Are you alone? You can’t drive like that man. Where the fuck are you?” he said, a bit pissed now.
“Ayaw paglagot, pasagdi gud ko. Kung ganahan ka, ali sa Vudu mag-inom ta.” (Don’t be mad, just leave me be. If you like, come here in Vudu and we’ll drink) he immediately disconnected the call. A few minutes later, he arrived.

“Jon! So glad to see you here! Come on let’s drink some more!” I said but he took me by the collar and dragged me out.
“But I don’t want to go home yet!” I protested.
“No you’re not going home like that Ram. Get inside the car.” His tone was serious and I decided not to shit with him anymore.
“What about my car?” I said.
“We can get it in the morning. Tonight you’re staying in my place.” We drove in silence and I was slowly sobering up and realized the mess that I was in.

We arrived at their house and he ushered me inside.
“Jon, I think I’m going to puke. Where’s your bathroom?” he brought me there to puke and I told him that he can leave me. When I went out, he called out from the kitchen. When I went inside, I saw him standing by the sink and he looked angry.
“Drink.” He handed me a cup of coffee so I took it.
“Look Jon-”
“What the fuck were you thinking?” it was more of a contained shout.
I wasn’t able to look him in the eyes. There was silence and I heard him sigh.
“My parents aren’t home; they’re staying at chateau with my grandparents. Ram look at me.” My gaze met his and I felt my insides turn into jelly.
“Why did you do that bai?” he asked. I only swallowed.
“If something happened to you, kinsa ang pasanginlan?” (Who’s going to be blamed?) he continued.
“Bai, you almost gave me a heart attack bai. What if Jason hadn’t called me. What if you were left there alone and you drove home drunk. Imagine all the things that could have happened Ram!” I tried to stop myself form crying.
“Can we do this tomorrow Jon?”
“No, let’s finish this now Ram. You’re being stupid and selfish bai!” that was it, I couldn’t take it anymore.
“Sorry na if I was being stupid and selfish. Sorry na if I got you worried. Sorry na if I wanted to get wasted. Sorry na if that’s the way I try to cope with pain. Sorry na if I want to get away from you. Sorry na if I can’t be a friend to you. Sorry na if I was trying to cover up the pain. Sorry na. Sorry na. Sorry na. Can we please talk in the morning?” I tried to walk away but he caught my arm.
“What are you talking about bai?” he whispered. I swallowed hard and, with the alcohol in my veins, felt like it’s time to be brave and say something.

“Jon, I like you bai. I fucking like you and I can’t do this anymore. I’m so sorry bai.” I pulled my arm away and walked out of the kitchen but he caught me in a backhug. Shit.
“Ram, you’re drunk. Stay the night and we’ll work this out in the morning. Please bai.” He whispered.
“Jon, you’re not making this anymore easier bai. Let me go bai.” I struggled to break free and I was already crying. But he wouldn’t let me go.
“Ram, we’ll talk in the morning bai. Please bai. Please bai. Stay sa bai, for tonight please lang bai.” He kept on pleading and won’t let go.I continued sobbing and tried to stop myself from crying some more as I nodded and let him usher me to his room.

“Sleep on the bed, I’ll sleep on the floor tonight. And don’t argue.” He told me and I complied.

To be continued. There was so much drama that happened to us hahaha

Ram - Cebu Coffee Shops Part 3

In the morning, I woke up with a throbbing in my head. Jon was already awake, half naked and sitting with his back to the bed. I cleared my throat and he faced me.
“You can shower and borrow some of my clothes before we go and get your car. I’ll be in my parents’ room, showering.” He said, going outside.
“Don’t. I’m not showering or borrowing your clothes. I’ll go outside and wait for you while you get ready.” I stood up and waited for him downstairs. I recalled the events that happened the past night and I cursed myself. What the fuck was I thinking? Did I really say that? Another friendship broken.

He came down fresh but he was looking glum and drained and I thought it was because he was still angry and pissed at me. We drove in silence but he stopped in front of Starbucks IT. “Breakfast before anything else.” He said going out of the car.
“Jon, bai, I’ll walk nalang to my car. Thanks a lot bai.” I said as I closed the door to his car.
“Ram. Breakfast.” He said sternly. I complied because I didn’t want him to get angry at me even more. We ate in silence, like strangers all over again.

“Jon,” I cleared my throat and he looked at me.
“Bai, if it’s about last night, kalimti nalang to.” (Forget about it) he said.
“Bai no, I can’t forget about the shitty things I did last night. Sorry kaayo bai.” (I’m so sorry) I apologized again.
“Ok ra lagi bai, let’s drop it na. You were just drunk.” (It’s really ok)
“I can’t drop it bai because there were things that I said that needs to be explained! And yes I was drunk pero the things I said were…” I snapped at him. The passersby eyed us but didn’t linger. There weren’t a lot of people in Starbucks and we were sitting outside.
“Let’s not talk here.” He stood up and walked to his car. I followed. He started the engine and drove us to where I left my car last night. We were silent until we’ve reached the parking lot.

“Bai, kapoya na bai oy (It’s all too tiring already). No more excuses, here it goes bai.” I said and swallowed hard on my seat. I was looking at him and he was trying not to look back at me; confusion and axiety written all over his face.
“What you heard last night was true bai. I like you. I fucking like you kaayo (very much) bai and I know you can never like me back so it sucks to the core. I’m sorry if I got wasted last night but what you did was really painful for me but of course I can’t blame you, all I have to blame is myself. Bai I’m sorry I can’t stop myself. That’s why I’ve been trying to keep my distance from you but I found out that I can’t get away bai. Fuck oy I’m so sorry for making things awkward for you bai.” I said and started to cry. The car was silent so I decided it was time to get out. That time he didn’t stop me. I didn’t want to look back, I tried hard not to look back. But I was thinking, Please call me. Please call me. Please call me back. But he didn’t. I drove home with tears clouding my eyes.

School continued and avoiding him was still hard. The teasing continued but a week before the second semester finals, I blew up. My barkada and I were on our way to our next class which was a room next to the class of Jon and his barkada. They just got out of their class and the two parties saw each other, so the teasing between Rhea and I ensued. It was alright, I learned to ignore them. But Jon decided to go overboard this time. He dragged Rhea by the hands and grabbed mine too. He then forced our hands together but I pulled away and when I did, he playfully pushed me towards Rhea who seemed uncomfortable already. I told him to stop but he kept on pushing me and lastly, he pushed me hard that I almost stumbled on Rhea but I managed to maneuver and avoided her but I landed with my ass on the ground.

“Bai what the fuck is wrong with you bai? Can you fuck off already?” I snapped at him. My friends helped me get up.
“Sorry bai, it’s all a joke.” Jon apologized.
“You think everything’s a joke Jon, fuck you oy.” I barked.
“Unsa’y problema nimo bai? (What’s your problem?) It was all a joke, calm down bai.” He said, pushing my chest.
“Kayata nimo oy, sobra na ka ha!” (What the fuck dude. You’re going overboard!) I exclaimed and landed a punch on his face. He threw a punch at me and hit me on the cheek. Our friends managed to hold us back before anymore damage could have been done. Both of us were struggling to break free and I saw that his nose was bleeding, I felt blood on my lips too. Our barkadas separated to try and clean our wounds before someone ran to the student affairs officer and report the incident.

After that, the teasing stopped and I could feel the tension between his barkada and mine every time we ran into each other between classes. After that, my feelings for him changed. Summer passed by quickly and before we knew it, I was a second year student and he was a third year.

Things between us began to soften up and one day, we caught each other’s eyes and he smiled at me. I smiled back. The feelings that I thought changed went back to how they were before and I cursed myself for that. But I thought, hey since we’re not that close anymore maybe it’s easier for me to not notice this feeling. Boy was I wrong.

One Saturday night, I was invited to a friend’s debut and when I showed up there, he was there too. Fate decided to play with us because we were seated on the same table; he was sitting across me. After the program, there was a DJ and the partying continued. There was a lot of dancing and grinding and alcohol so pretty much everyone was having fun. I didn’t drink too much because I was driving home and after a while, I decided to sit out the next song.

I was just observing from my table when Jon walked towards me, with two shots of tequila in hand. He gave one to me. It was the last one I had for the night.
“Musta bai?” (How are you?) he said.
“Ok ra bai, struggling but surviving.” I replied, “You? How’s third year life?” I asked.
“So tiring bai. The struggle is real gyud oy haha!” he said and it’s like nothing changed between us. We talked the rest of the night away but he kept on drinking while I kept on refusing. By 3am, he was drunk enough to walk in a wobble.
“Ok that’s it, I’m driving you home bai.” I told him and he didn’t protest. I helped him inside my car and drove to his house.

“Bai, can I crash in your place tonight bai? No one’s at home man gud and I don’t think our yayas will open the gate for us.” He said and I thought for a while, drunk person + alone with him in the bedroom + crazy feelings for the drunk guy = not a good idea, I told myself but he was pleading; there was pain in his eyes so I had no choice.

I helped him out of the car and up the stairs to my bedroom, making sure that we were quiet.
“Bai, you can change into my clothes bai.” I said and helped him out of his clothes and into mine. He was silent all throughout that time.
“Sleep on the bed, I’ll sleep on the floor bai.” I told him as we sat on the floor. I stood up to try and make a bed for me on the floor but he held my arm.
“Bai, you can sleep next to me.” He said.
“No bai, it’s ok. I can sleep-”
“Ram, tupad ta.” (Ram, sleep beside me) he said and I had no choice, his grip on my arm was strong. So we lay in bed, side by side. I turned to him but his eyes were closed. I wasn’t able to sleep, I just kept on staring at the ceiling.

A few minutes after, he said, “Ram?”
“Yeah?”
“I’m sorry.” He said and sat up. I sat up and faced him.
“You don’t have to be. It’s ok bai, you did the same thing to me so I’m just paying you back.” I said but he shook his head.
“For everything bai. For all the pain I caused you.” Shit, is he for real? I thought.
“Bai, don’t worry. Time heals and I have forgiven you. Now, let’s sleep na bai.” I was about to lie back down but he did something. He grabbed my face with both of his hands and brought his lips to mine. I kissed him back but I soon realized what was happening. I pushed him away.

“Bai, what’s worng with you?” I whispered to him.
“Ram, I’m so sorry Ram.” He buried his face on his hands and began crying. I hugged him until he stopped.
“Ram I’m so sorry Ram. That night, when you told me you liked me, I don’t know what was going on. It happened all too fast. Everything seemed all too real for me and I guess I got scared bai. I’m a fucking mess bai.” There was silence as he tried to touch my face.
“I know it’s too late but Ram… I like you too.” He said and all the pain and wounds he caused me seemed to stitch and heal at that moment. But I stopped myself.

“Bai.” I said but he kissed me on the lips again. This time I gave in. Our hands began to explore each other but I told him to stop.
“It’s too fast bai. I don’t want it like this.” I whispered to him and he nodded, kissing me on the lips.
So we just lay there, in each other’s arms and fell asleep.

I woke up to his lips on mine. “Good morning.” He smiled. I smiled back.
I was about to get up when he grabbed my arm and wrapped me in an embrace.
“Can we stay like this for a while?” he whispered and again, I complied.

We stayed like that until 2pm, when our stomachs began to grumble.

School was different. It became better. My smile became wider whenever we bumped into each other in between classes, we had secret meetings in Mango Square especially when we had the same breaks and we went to school and went home together. Our friends asked us what was up but we only told them that we got close. They didn’t speculate anymore.

“Ram, let’s study out bai!” He texted me one Saturday morning, a week before midterms.
“Sure! Where man?” I quickly replied.
“Any idea where? Kana’ng near lang sa ato’ng house.” (A place near our house)
“Country mall bai!” I said.
“Boang! Haha how about Starbucks in Oakridge?” He asked.
“Sounds great!” I replied.
“Ok, get ready na”
“Pick me up?” I asked him.
“Actually…” he replied.
“What?”
“Look out your window.” When I received this text, my heart jumped. I went to my window and opened the curtains. There I saw, the bastard smiling widely at me. I can’t help but smile back. My phone rang.
“Pagdali na!” he said, still smiling at me.
“You’re crazy you know that?” I replied.
“I know. I’m crazy for you, you ugly bed monster.” Fuck he was so cute and I died a little when he said that. I rolled my eyes and got ready.

We spent the whole day studying in Starbucks and there were times when I’d catch him gawking at me and then he’d just smile shyly. There weren’t a lot of people especially 4pm onwards so both of us became touchy and we didn’t care. He even held my hand under the table, catching me off guard and when I looked at him he was just smiling and continued reading his book. I didn’t let go.

I don’t know what we were but I think we both silently agreed that we were something; there was something special between us. But things never last forever.

And it’s something I learned the hard way.

To be continued. As I’ve said, a lot happened between Jon and I haha

Jash - Fairy Tail Part 1

Magandang araw sa inyong lahat. First time ko mag susulat dito kaya pagpasensyahan nyo na kung may mali ako. Ako nga pla si Jash 19 years old, 5'7. Chinito, may girlfriend at gwapo siguro, madami din nagkakagusto sakin ehh. Haha. Bi ako pero walang nakakaalam na naaattract ako sa kapwa ko lalake. Ang ibabahagi ko ngaun sa inyo ay totoong nangyari. Si James, isang estudyante sa isang paaralan dito sa calamba ang matagal ko ng pinagpapantasyahan. 17 years old sya, Gwapo, Heartthrob sa school namin, may girlfriend :( tingin ko 5'6 ang height nya. Hindi kami close pero gustong gusto kong maging close sa kanya. Isang araw nakita ko sya sa SM Calamba na mag isa, syempre pinagmasdan ko muna sya ng matagal kasi baka mamaya kasama pala nya girlfriend nya. Halos 30 mins akong nakatingin sa kanya at parang sya lang talaga mag isa.

"Ito na chance ko para maging close sa kanya" sabi ko sa sarili ko. Nilapitan ko sya sa may food court para makipag kilala.

"Pre schoolmate tayo diba?"

"Uhh hndi ko alam ehh, d naman kita napapansin sa school"

"Ahh ganun ba. Lagi kitang nakikita sa school ehh. May kasama ka?"

"Wala tambay lang, ikaw?"

"Tambay lang din, Jash nga pala" inabot ko kamay ko sa kanya para makipag shake hands.

"James pre, *shake hands* anu course mo pala?"

"EE tol, ikaw ba?"

"Ece ako *sabay ngiti* " Shet ang cute nya

--Awkward silence--

"Oi pre uwi na ako "-James

"Saan ka ba nauwe? Sabay na tayo"

"Sa *** *****, ikaw? "
"Dun din ako ehh tara sabay na"

Sumakay kami ng jeep papuntang turbina para sumakay sa bus. Buti nalang hndi tayuan sa bus at kung nagkataon, isang oras kmeng nakatayo. Sa dulo umupo si james, syempre tinabihan ko sya. Kinikilig na ako ng mga oras na yun :D .

"San ka sa *** ***** ? "

"Bababa ako sa may (Insert hospital name here)"

"Pre may mix ka ba?"

"Oo half japanese pre, ikaw?"

"Ahh wala, pure pinoy ako. Chinito lang haha. Anu nga pala number mo? "

"Sira cellphone ko ngaun ehh, pero ito yung ginagamit ko, 0987******* "

"ahh sige. Nanunuod kang anime? "

"OO PRE!!! IKAW DIN?? " Mukang naganahan syang makipag kwentuhan sken haha buti naitanong ko yun!

"oo nanunuod din ako, anu anung anime mga napanuod mo na?"

"Fairy tail, No game no life bsta madami na ehh"

At nagkwentuhan at nagtawanan kme tungkol sa anime, hanggang sa maubusan kme ng sasabihin at antukin sya.

"Pre pagising naman kapag nasa (Insert hospital name here) na ako ha."

"Sige sige"

Pinagmasdan ko sya habang tulog, tiningnan ko yung baba nya. Bakat yung titi nya. Natutukso tuloy ako kung hahawakan ko o hindi. Biglang pumreno ng malakas yung bus at nagising sya. Kinausap ko sya kasi baka maging awkward nanaman ehh

"May gagawin ka sa inyo ngaun?"

"Nunuod ng hentai, Joke! Hahaha. Wala naman walang tao sa bahay namin ehh"

"ahh tara sa amin ngaun kung ok lang sayo. Wala din tao sa bahay namin ehh."

"ok lang sken, san ba kayo nakatira?"

Ayun nga pumayag sya, pagkakataon ko na to! Mejo nagkapalagayan na kame ng loob at mejo close na din kami. Next sem, magshishift ako sa Ece! :D Nakarating kami sa bahay namin.

"Malapit lang pala bahay nyu smen ehh" -James

"Ahh ganun ba, tara hatid na kita mamaya"

Dumiretso kme sa kwarto ko at tinanong ko sya kng anu gusto nya kainin.

"Gutom ka na? Anu gusto mo kainin?"

"Ge ayus lang busog pa naman ako"

Naglaro nlng kme ng ps4 at niyaya ko nlang sya manuod ng anime.

"Pre alam mo yung Eroge! H mo Game mo Kaihatsu Zanmai (search nyo para malaman nyu) :D " -James

"Hentai yun ahh! Tara! "

Cinonnect ko yung Desktop sa TV nmen para malaki screen 4 episodes yata yun or 3

Nasa tapat ng kama ko yung tv at nakaupo kme sa kama ko habang nanunuod.

"Ahh pre ansarap!" -James

"Haha gago to"

Kung mag gaguhan ehh parang sobrang close na hahaaha Yapos yapos nya yung unan at prang gusto nyang hindutin yung unan. Palapit ako ng palapit sa kanya habang yapos yapos nya yun. Gagawin ko na first move! Pagkakataon na to!

"Pre may experience ka na sa babae?"

"Bat mo natanong?"

"wala lang hahaha"

"Oo meron na, ikaw?"

"Schoolmate ba nten?"

"Secret ko na yun hahahha"

"Ehh sa lalake may experience ka na?" Kinakabahan na ako ng mga oras na to habang sinasabi ko to sa kanya.

"Meron na din pero hanggang blowjob lang sila sken, bket chuchupa ka?" Pabiro nyang sabi.

"Bket gusto mo ba?" -Ako

"Seryoso ka pre?"

"Kung gusto mo ehh :) "

"Pre bakla ka ba? "

"May girlfriend ako, pero d ko alam ehh, naaattract ako sayo. Matagal na kitang tinitingnan sa school ehh, ok lang ba?

"Ikaw bahala"

Hinubad ko yung pantalon nya kaya nakaboxer nlang sya. Shet ang swerte ko :D

"Patayin mo yung ilaw, naiilang ako ehh"

Pinatay ko yung ilaw, at hinubad ko na rn ung damit nya. Hndi sya payat pero hndi dn mataba, tama lang. Nag g-gym yata sya ehh.

Hahalikan ko sana sya sa labi pero umiwas sya kaya hinalikan ko nlng sya sa leeg pababa habang nilalamas ko yung alaga nya sa loob ng boxers nya. Kinakagat kagay ko yung alaga nya sa loob ng boxers nya na tigas na tigas na. Hndi na ako nakapagpigil kaya hinubad ko na din ung boxers nya. Ang laki ng alaga nya, siguro nasa 6 inches yun. Lalo ako nalibugan sa mahihinang ungol nya habang taas baba ang bibig ko sa alaga nya.

"ahh pre sige pa lalabasan na ako"

Itinigil ko muna ang pag chupa sa kanya at binalikan ko ang katawan nya na kulang nlang ay kainin ko.

Kinuha nya yung wallet nya at kumuha ng condom. Mukang alam ko na mangyayari ahh. First time ko rin mapapsukan kaya mejo kinabahan ako nun. Binuksan nya ung condom, isinuot sa alaga nya at tumayo. Kinuha ko yung baby oil at ipinahid sa butas ko at sa alaga nya na may condom.

"Pre tuwad ka" -james

"Pre dahan dahan lang, first time ko"

Dahan dahan nya pinasok yung alaga nya sa butas ko. Ang sakit pero ang sarap! Nung naipasok na nya ng buo, tumigil muna sya. Mga ilang segundo ay kumadyot na sya. Mga ilang minuto dn kme sa ganung position. Pinatigil ko sya at pinahiga. Tinutok ko yung alaga nya sa butas ko at game na ulet. Ang sarap sobra!

Lalo ako nalilibugan sa muka nya na nakapikit at mahinang naungol. Ang gwapo sobra! Ang sarap nya araw arawin.

"ahhhhhh uhhm uuhhh pre lalabasan na ako"

tumigil ako at tumayo para alisin yung condom sa alaga nya.v Chinupa ko sya ng chinupa habang nakadapa sa paanan nya hanggang labasan sya. Ang matamis tamis na maalat yung tamod nya na kalat sa muka at bibig ko. pagkatapos nya labasan, chinuchupa ko pden sya habang nagjajakol ako. Nung nilabasan na ako, tumabi ako sa kanya, pawis na pawin kaming dalawa. Para syang baby na ang sarap alagaan. Nagkwentuhan kme at ikinuwento ko sa kanya na matagal ko na syang pinagpapantasyahan.
Di ko akalain na sa unang pagkakakilala nmen ay magagawa ko na agad to sa kanya. Ang sarap sa pakiramdam.

Sorry kng mejo detailed yung kwento ko. Kung nagustohan nyo baka ikwento ko pa sa inyo yung mga sunod na nangyari sa amin. :)

Jash - Fairy Tail Part 2

Magandang araw! ngayon ibabahagi ko ang second part ng kwento ko:D Matapos nmen mag sex sa kwarto ko ay nagkwentuhan kme. Sinabi ko sa kanya lahat na matagal ko na syang pinagmamasdan sa school at pinagpapantasyahan. Nakatulog sya pagkatapos nmen magkwentuhan, at pagkagising ko.

"Shit 8pm na pla!!"

bumangon ako agad at hinayaan ko muna si james na matulog sa kwarto ko. Ang gwapo nya, prang gusto ko ulitin yung ginawa nmen. Nag text yung nanay ko na umaga na sila makakarating dahil mag oovertime sila sa trabaho.
yes! ang swerte ko! Hindi ko tlga ginising si james para dito na sya magpalipas na gabi. Hinanap ko yung cellphone nya sa bag nya pero naalala ko na sira nga pla yun.
Habang nililinis ko yung mga kalat nmen, nakita ko calling card ng tatay nya sa wallet nya. Putakte japanese yung sulat! Hindi ko maintindihan, dalawa yung number na nakasulat kaya d ko alam kng alin dun yung itetext ko.
Itinext ko parehas yung number.

"Text: Tito, jash po ito. Kaibigan po ni james. Nakatulog na po kasi sya dito sa bahay ehh. Pwede pong dito nlang po sya magpalipas ng gabi? Tapos ihatid ko nlng po sya bukas."

wala pang nag rereply dun sa tinext kong number. Baka hindi naintindihan haha
Maya maya habang nagluluto ako may nag text sken.

"Text: Tutoy mommy ito ni james. Saan ba kayo nakatira at ipapasundo ko nalang sya."

shet di ko alam ang irereply ko para hindi sya sunduin dito samen. Kaya hindi ko nalang nireplyan.

Maya maya (ulet hahaha) nag text ulet yung mommy nya

"Text: Tutoy, makikihatid nalang si james bukas ha. Maraming salamat :) "

Hay salamat! Hndi ko na kelangan magsinungaling ahaha
Pagkatapos ko magluto, gigisingin ko na dapat si james pero nalibugan ako sa pwesto nya! Nakatihaya sya tapos may nakapatong na unan sa kanya. Nilapitan ko sya at dahan dahan kong inalis yung unan. Kinapa ko yung alaga nya at boom! Ang tigas ng alaga nya!
shet libog nanaman ako! dahan dahan kong ibinaba yung boxers nya at sinubo ko ulet yung alaga nya. Itinigil ko muna ang pagchupa at nung gigisingin ko na sya, naattract ako sa lips nya ang pula kase. Hahalikan ko na sana ehh pero naalala kong umiwas nga pla sya nung hahalikan ko sya.
Kaya hindi ko nalang tinuloy, baka magising ehh. Magalit pa haha
Try ko nlang ulet yayain sya mamaya pagkakain namin.

"James gising na, gabi na."

"**Napatingin sa bintana** SHIT anung oras na?! Patext naman! "

"Anu ka ba okay lang yan! Natext ko na dad mo. Pumayag na dito ka matulog, ihatid nlng daw kita bukas."

"ahh buti nlang! Lagot sana ako. Saan mo nakuha yung number?"

"Sa wallet mo."

"Nabasa mo yung nakasulat?"

"Hindi, tinext ko parehas para sure haha. Tara kain na"

Habang nakain kame, mejo awkward ehh. Hindi ko alam kng awkward tlga yung atmosphere o ako lang ang nakakaramdam nun.
Kanina kase parang wala lang sa kanya yung nangyare ehh

"James, yung kanina" -ako

"ahh kanina. Sobrang nalibugan lang tlga ako kaya ko nagawa yun haha"

"Nag bago ba tingin mo sken dahil ginawa ko yun?"

"Hindi naman. Okay lang"

Balewala lang sa kanya yung nangyari. Siguro dahil sanay na sya sa ganun.

Pagkatapos namin kumain, nag volunteer sya na siya na daw maghuhugas ng pinagkainan.

"Ako na maghuhugas ng pinagkainan nten"

"Hndi wag na. Ako na maghuhugas, bisita ka dito ehh"

"Bisita nga ako pero ayaw ko maging Bwisita."

"HAHAHHA"

"HAHAHHA uloool! Sige na nga bahala ka na dyan"

"Ge tol"

Habang pinagmamasdan ko sya habang naghuhugas ng pinagkainan, shet ang ganda ng pwet nya! at bigla sya nag salita.

"Wala ka talagang kasama dito?"

"Meron pero bukas pa ng umaga ang dating nila ehh, overtime sa trabaho."

Nilapitan ko sya kasi parang d sya sanay mag hugas ng pinggan.
Hinawakan ko yung kamay nya pero bigla nya inalis yung kamay ko :(

"Ahh marunong na ako *sabay ngiti* " -james

"CR lang ako" -ako

Habang nasa cr**

SHEEET anu ba yung ginawa ko! Nakakahiya!! fuck!!! kung ano ano napasok sa utak ko.
Mukang yung pleasure lng tlga yung habol nya kanina :(
ganyan hirap sa mga nag eexpect ehh. UMAASA :(

Paglabas ko ng CR, tapos na sya mag hugas ng pinggan at niyaya ko na ulet sya sa kwarto ko.

"Ay release nga pla nung black bullet kahapon! Tara nuod tayo!" -james

"ay oo nga pla tara!"

"nako jash! dpat ginising mo ako kanina, sana nakakuha akong damit sa bahay namin."

"Ok lang pahiramin nalang kita"

"sige salamat"

Habang nanunuod napadikit yung braso ko sa kanya

"ahh jash. Wag mo sana bigyan ng meaning yung nagyari kanina"

"ahh yun ba, wala sken yun. (shet ang sakit) "

**Sabay akbay si james sken**

"Ay ito nga pla yung damit, boxers at pajama" -ako

"yun, salamat pre. Boxers nalang, hndi nlng ako magdadamit at pajama sa pagtulog, nakakahiya naman ehh"

"ulol nahiya ka pa!"

"oo nga promise, okay lang"

Nanuod lang kme ng nanuod ng anime at hentai at inabot kme ng 2am

"pare mag lilinis lang ako. Pagamit ng cr. Salamat"

"ako na maglilinis ng katawan mo hahaha"

"gagooo hahhaha. Wait lng ha."

**paglabas nya ng CR naka boxers nalang sya.

"nagjakol ka lang yata sa cr ehh"

"Di ahh, edi sana niyaya kita ahaha" -james

shet may ibig sabihin ba yun o binibigyan ko nanaman ng meaning?

"Gago ako naman maglilinis" -ako

**paglabas ko ng cr, nakahiga na sya at nakapikit na.

"james tulog ka na?"

tapos tumango nalang sya.

Pinakiramdaman ko sya kng tulog na tlga sya kse libog na libog na tlga ako ehh. Nasa isang kumot kami at maya maya ay bigla syang yumakap sken at pinatong yung binti nya sa may bewang ko
shet libog na libog na tlga ako! Lalo na at naka boxers lang sya! shet yummy! Bihira lang magyayari to kaya susunggaban ko na ang pagkakataon!
Habang nakapatong yung binti nya sken ay nilapit ko yung katawan ko hanggang madikit ako sa alaga nya. Bat ganun, tuwing hahawakan ko yung alaga nya, laging tigas! hahaha napakalibog nitong batang to ehh!
Napaubo ako nun dahil nasamid ako sa laway ko haha, pero bigla sya gumalaw at mejo inikot yung katawan kaya konti nlng nakadapa na sya sken. Inayos ko sya para nakadapa na yung pwesto nya sken
para syang baby, nakahiga sya sa dibdib ko habang pinapakiramdaman ko yung alaga nya sa may binti ko haha. Ilang minuto din kami sa ganung posisyon kaya hindi na ako nakatiis at muli ko syang hiniga at chinupa.
Nagmulat sya nun ng konti at pinatong yung kamay nya sa ulo ko at pumikit na ulet. Pabalik balik ako sa leeg, katawan at alaga nya, para ko na syang nirerape habang tulog hahaha.
paulit ulit na pagromansa ang ginawa ko sa kanya hanggang labasan sya. D ko alam kng gising sya o anu ehh haha. Enjoy ako nun dahil mejo matagal bago sya labasan hahaha nilunok ko lahat ng tamod nya at nag punta sa cr para magparaos.
Pagbalik ko sa tabi nya, nakatagilid sya paharap sa akin. Kinuha ko yung kamay nya at iniyapos ko yung kamay nya sa akin. Shet ang ganda ng lips nya tlga, sobrang lapit ng muka namin at prang gusto ko syang halikan!
Ang bango ng hininga nya haha. Palapit na ng palapit ang labi ko sa labi nya at yun! Nailapat ko yung labi ko sa labi nya, kung gising sya sana umiwas na sya pero hindi sya umiwas at tulog na tulog paden.
Nilalaplap ko na yung labi nya shet ang sarap! ang lambot ng lips nya!
kinakagat kagat ko yung lips nya habang hinahalikan ko sya. Parang gusto ko syang alagaan ehh! Una dahil muka syang baby! HAHAHA ang weirdo ko pero seryoso! Pangalawa, ang sarap nya! Sarap nyang susuhin araw araw!
Kung pede nga lang ehh! Parang naf-fall na nga ako sa kanya ehh pero pipigilan ko yung sarili ko kasi alam kong masasaktan lang ako kasi straight sya at pumayag lang sya sa ginawa namin dahil trip nya at sobrang libog na din.

Hanggang dito nalang muna! Pag nagustuhan nyo, ikukwento ko yung nangyari kinabukasan pagkagising nmen! Nagulat ako sa nangyari pagkagising namin ehh! Abangan nyo nlang part 3